I am having second thoughts about my next cycle of therapy, the chances are it isn’t going to make much difference to the actual lump so I am wondering if there is any actual point in me having it. It is going to make me feel like crap, my hair will go all hinky again , it will make me grumpy and I will have to leave fluffy butt & fuzzy butt alone every morning for two weeks and for what ?. If it does not make any difference to the little lump why bother, the lump is so small now I am debating cancelling it and just trying to get my life back on track and start living again. After doing everything the powers that be have suggested over the last 3-ish years I am feeling like it it is time I started to make decisions about my own health.
I have been talking to various people on C forums and they kinda helped me make up my mind about this and I am almost positive I am going to cancel this cycle and get my life back now. I am going to tidy this house up and get it on the market and get a smaller place and if I have any money left over I am off to see my friend in Texas. All of this will not happen over night I know but it is time for me to look to the future now. So watch out world I am on my way back at last.