Showing posts with label TUES. Show all posts
Showing posts with label TUES. Show all posts

Wednesday, 30 November 2011

In the still of the night

I am sitting downstairs with Uji & Izzy sleeping one each side of me and I have had a bit of a blub. Ronnii is tucked up safely with her Daddy both of them snoring I can hear one of them down here but I wont say which. Ronnii’s spay went well but the vet found a lump which is being sent of for tests and as she had a large mammary tumour removed I am more than a little concerned. I know what ever the outcome we will do what ever is needed and I have not blubbed because I am feeling sorry for me but I feel so helpless as we all do when our furbabes are unwell. I think the lack of sleep with Izzy and her seizures is not helping either to be honest but hopefully the fact they are worsening could mean she is coming into her season ( the vet she saw when she was in rescue thought they were hormonal ) so once she has that we can organise her spay and hopefully that will ease those for her. Uji continues to do well and although he still hops on and off I think it is more habit now than anything as when he and Izzy start playing rambunctiously he totally forgets about it.

I really hope 2012 is better for the trio healthwise than the last few weeks and I am sure that it will be better my little pack can only get better from here on in but it does take it out of you emotionally but you do what needs to be done don’t you ?

I love my wonky little trio so much and they bring so much joy, laughter and love into our lives it is certainly worth a little emotional roller coaster ride. I will let you all know Ronnii’s test results as soon as I do but please keep her in your prayers please every little helps.

Love

Momma Tea

Tuesday, 15 February 2011

Tiredness …………. Tell Me About It

I am surprised at quite how crap this radiotherapy is making me feel, I guess I thought because it is not as invasive as chemo that I would not feel so bad but boy was I wrong about that. I have never had tiredness like this in my life, it is all encompassing and there is no getting away from it, Worse luck. I know it will all be worth it in the long run but the long run seems so far away sometimes. I will admit I am finding it difficult to keep positive right now and the smallest problems seem to be blown out of all proportions . I am lucky in that I have a wonderful counsellor I can talk to when ever I need to and she tells me all of this is completely normal and it will pass eventually it just seems like it won’t though.

My Richie is definitely slowing down bless him, he is not keen on walkies anymore and his appetite is not what it was but I am keeping a very close eye on him. He is such a wonderful little chap and I love him to bits, just seeing him curled up snoring on my bed makes me smile. Last night he snuggled in so close to me and we both fell asleep all cuddled up ………. heaven !

So all in all even though I am feeling all down in the dumps and pretty pants I’m still a very lucky woman with two amazingly wonderful dogs, a pretty amazing OH, the most fabulous parents and THE most wonderful, awesome, handsome but annoying son in the world.

Me and the furballs are off for a lay down now

 

Momma Tea

Tuesday, 1 February 2011

This, That n Something Else

Off to see the blood suckers this afternoon to get my seizure med levels checked as they are obviously not right but with all the other stuff that has been going in bod for the last couple of years it is hardly surprising my levels are going all hinky really.

Today is my OH’s birthday and he only had a couple of things to open as the gift the furballs ordered has not arrived and I can’t get him his main gift until I have some money ( oh the joy of vet bills……lol ) thankfully he feels the same as me in that the pooch’s come first bless him. But he loved the head torch the babes gave him so he can see where he is going when he goes off down holes in the hills and exploring. He liked the DVD I got him as well which is good. I haven’t managed to make a cake so am buying one later ( he has special pirate candles for it but shhhh don’t tell him ). He is out visiting the furballs Uncle Ru at the moment as Uncle Ru’s back is playing up. He is another one of our awesome friends, the card he sent Steve got him rather choked as the words meant a lot to my OH. Sometimes I don’t think my OH realises how much people care about him so when he see’s it put into words he gets a bit stunned. He really does not have a clue how bloomin great he is the silly sausage.

I hope he is having a nice visit it seems ages since we have seen Ru, goodness me it was before Crimbo as soon as he is feeling better we will have to all get together me thinks.

Am a bit concerned about our Richie as he is slowing down these days, not so keen on his walkies which is most unlike him and he didn’t eat yesterday . His tummy was uber gurgly and noisy all night long and he came down at about 4-40 am and had a poop in the kitchen, when I came down to look for him he was cowering on the front door mat poor boy. So I just scooped him up and gave him cuddles and big loves to let him know that I wasn’t cross. It really makes me wonder what on earth his past was like to get that reaction from him. His tummy is squitty this morning so he has had some anti squit jollop and I am going to keep a close eye on him if he is no better tomorrow I will get him checked out. He is still not fancying food but if his tum is upset that is not unusual really. I took him back up to bed after our late nite snuggle fest and he  hunkered down under the duvet with his head on the pillow like this

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and he went to sleep being cuddle by Mom which was rather lovely for me.

Anyway have a lovely day all of you

 

Momma Tea

Tuesday, 18 January 2011

Tuesdays Waffle

Thankfully Ronnii is back to normal now, her usual bossy slightly grumble-some adorable self. I think the tooth & ear cleaning has made her feel a lot better in herself, there is certainly no more frantic ear scratching. The vet said her ears were in a terrible state which made me feel so guilty that we didn’t get it sorted sooner . Unfortunately her insurance is void because she is not the youngster I told them she was but at the time I didn’t know any different although I had a mild suspicion she was older than we were told. When you get a rescue dog thats one of the things though you don’t know anything, very little history so you can only go by what you are told. Then again where you get them from only know what they are told by the vets that asses them so it is all taken on good faith by all concerned. Obviously I have not submitted a claim to our insurers and am shopping around for a policy that covers older dogs with a reasonable premium ( blooming hard task I must say ) ,  I wanted a younger dog so we would have them around for longer and  of course the health issues with a younger dog are smaller but I would not swap our girl for all the money in the world. She is part of our family and we all adore her so much even if she does grumble at us.

Yesterday I finally managed to see my GP about my icky throat and I have a throat and gland infection so now have stronger antibiotics to take. The dogs are loving it because I have no voice to tell them no with so they are getting away with murder bless them. I think the other half is enjoying the peace and quiet too…..lol. My son is all mended and back at school now so thats good and one less thing to worry about, I suspect he is seeing his Dad this weekend so I will be seeing him next week sometime and I cant wait. I don’t see enough of him by any means but he has so much on his plate with the masses of homework he gets and having to see his Dad too so I take a back seat. He knows I am here for him if he needs me and he knows I love him more than life itself and as long as he is happy thats the main thing for me.

My next round of treatment is all arranged now can’t say i am looking forward to it but it is a means to an end which is the important thing the thing that peeves me most is losing my hair yet again but it is a small price to pay to ultimately get a normal life back again if that is ever possible considering my son wants to continue living with my folks even when I am well again. But it has to better than the life I have now so hey ho and on we go. Which reminds me I must send my Pop the link for the new wig I would I like .

YAY long hair here I come so let the good times roll.

 

Momma Tea

Tuesday, 7 December 2010

Tuesday Thoughts

Well Christmas is fast approaching and with it the Winter weather, I love the snow but am not keen on cold, frosty, slippery mornings. They look great but are treacherous not just for my feet but for little paws too, poor Richie slipped in the garden this morning he was fine but the he did get that ‘ Oh my dog I hope no one saw that’ look on his face which was comical. He is coughing a lot this morning but I think the cold is making him catch his breath and cough so I will be keeping my beady eyes on him. He is getting much better about trying to boink Ronnii thankfully, she seems relieved about this as well. She does seem to have a few guarding issues, she tries to block Richie out from being able to jump on the sofa next to me and if the poor lad comes near she gives him the evil eye and growls so I have to rescue him. I am hoping this will pass in time but it isn’t a biggie as it is not all the time. It is odd though because sometimes they will snuggle up together very happily and others she just gives him evils but I guess she is exercising her female prerogative.

They both seem to be bemused by the Crimbo tree but thankfully have not been interested enough to have a good nose around and about it. The parcels under it seem to be rather interesting to them as well I guess they know there is one or two under there for them.

I had a bit of a hair disaster last night, I dyed it black well it was supposed to be Ebony but it definitely has a blue tinge about it which was the last thing I wanted. I am going to have to cut the longer bits off so it looks more black ( the longer bits had blonde tips and these are what have gone blue ). I still don’t have that much hair so I could have done without this going pear shaped……….lol.

Last weeks snow has left an unwanted gift now that it has departed….. I have a horrid snotty nose and sore throat but I guess that’s what I get for playing in the snow like a big kid… it was fun though.

I finally got all the Christmas cards for the Card exchange out on Saturday which was good, the dogs have got more than us hoo-mans so far but thats as it should be.

Right I am off to put some heat on as it is blooming freezing here

 

Momma Tea

Tuesday, 30 November 2010

Charitys Voice From Rainbow Bridge

The Beginning Of The Story

 

My name is Charity. My life began about 9 months ago. I was one of a litter of several and knew nothing of the world or the people in it. I knew my mother and warmth and hunger. I knew one day something was wrong when I was ripped from my mother with two of my sisters. We were hurt in ways we did not understand and could not make sense of what was wanted or expected of us. You see, we were born American Pit Bull Terriers and those who may not understand; we are a very loyal breed. We want only to please those who feed and care for us. Ideally, we would be nurtured and our sharp instincts used for wonderful things, like rescuing small children who have wandered away from a campground, or tunneling through debris at a World Trade Center when bad men do horrid things.But I was born into a world that does not understand us. The most decorated Army dog ever was my kind, and now... well... now they want to kill us all I understand. I am not so sure what it is that makes people hate us so. I know we grow into dogs with a powerful bite and we can do a lot of damage. But, basically, we will do what it is we are trained to do. If we are with a kind person, and we learn kindness from an early age, we can be the best friends ever. Some of us have an instinct that makes us what is called animal aggressive, and I know that is not such a good thing when we need to get along in a family. I was never aggressive. I never harmed anyone or anything... and neither did my two sisters, Faith and Hope. But because of what we are, bad people like to take us and make us do bad things. And those bad people make a lot of other humans hate us for what we are trained to do. But that is another story, sort of... though that story is the reason why things happened to us as they did. Our birth was brought about by one of those bad people with bad intentions. And the more people hate us, the more those bad people want us and the worse they treat us. And it is ok because we are just “Pit Bulls” and “Dumb Dogs.” They do not seem to understand that we feel pain, we feel when someone hates us, and we do not want to be hurt. So ... that is the world we were born into, but we did not understand all of that then. We just understood we had been ripped from our mother; we could not eat because we had no teeth; and, worse ... the man who bred us had a teenage son that was doing really bad things to us. I later learned that it was called sexual molestation, sodomy, or bestiality. I just knew that it hurt and I could hear my sisters crying when he would hurt them. Faith was so small and I tried really hard to protect her. I cannot tell you how many times this happened, though it could not have been many or we would not have lived. But it was enough to hurt us. One day the boy was seen hurting us and his father saw what was happening too. He rushed us to this place called the County Animal Shelter. I think we were supposed to be killed there and no one would ever question what happened, because most “Pits” that go into a place like that do not come out alive. But this was a good place with people who did care.The man told them the big dog down the road had “gotten to us.” I guess they figured that is how we got all those bite marks all over our bodies where the other dogs were allowed to hurt us. But they noticed there that we were very, very still, huddled together ... and we would not eat. I was very worried about my sisters. And they seemed to look to me. Then this woman and man came and got us and took us to a place called The Eagle’s Den. After that, things changed. They call it rescue, and I am glad we were rescued. I wish all of my kind could be because it gives us a chance. But... anyway... we saw a vet and he sort of guessed at what had happened to us. But the man was not punished, nor his son. All I know is there is something called an investigation into all those bad people and they really want to catch them all. They should. And I hope one day there will be some justice for me and my sisters.But the people will have to work that out because well... we are just dogs.And our story has not ended. Well, mine has, at least there where it hurt every time I went to the bathroom, but where life was so good I did not let on that I was hurting. You see, one day I just felt funny and then I went to sleep. I can remember wet tears on my face as the man and woman held me and I knew they were going to try and save me again. But I was just so tired. After having been in pain for so long and knowing my sisters were I just went to sleep and came to a place called Rainbow Bridge. It is very nice here. I have a lot of friends here. There are all kinds of dogs and many of my kind, many that were hurt like I was, and killed. And I can watch over Faith and Hope here. They have had surgery now to help them. After I came here everyone knew we were not alright. We were rambunctious pups, yes. And we were scared pups because of all we went through. All we really wanted was a friend and to play and be happy. I am rooting for Faith and Hope now and I watch over them from here. They had the surgery they needed to fix the pain. They may not understand the pain they are in right now, but it will get better now.There are a lot of people upset because of what happened to us. And I am very glad they are upset. If I could tell them anything that would help: make it stop; but not just this man. Make it all stop. Get the people who make laws to write some that will protect us. What happened to us is against the law. That is a fact. But there are no federal laws to help us, and they get away with it time and again. Anyone who wants to see how often this happens, just type the word Canine sexual molestation into your computers and look. But you only see the cases that get reported. And not much happens in those cases. Even when they kill us, not much happens. So if you want to help, if you want it to stop ... there is only one way. Make it illegal all over the United States. Make uniform laws so that all animal abuse carries mandatory sentences. Other countries protect their companion animals. If you guys who have prayed so hard and whose love I feel so strongly want to help ... make it stop. Make them hear you. They have never heard us. Faith’s surgery went really well, even though she was the sickest. Hope had hers and she is doing ok now. Ironically, Hope may have already been here at Rainbow Bridge, but some of the abuse actually saved her. When they did her surgery, they found a piece of metal in her intestines, surrounded by flesh. It was blocking a tear. They had to cut off a lot more of her intestines than they did Faith’s, but she will be ok now ... I HOPE. That piece of metal stopped poison from spilling into her body at least, even though it did damage, it helped her to stay alive long enough to get the surgery to save her life. I am watching, and I am hoping this will make people wake up and realize what goes on with us when we are bred for all the wrong reasons. I hope people will stop punishing our breed for what these people do and realize what we go through. I wish they all could be rescued. I wish there was no reason to rescue.There is one more thing I have seen since I came to Rainbow Bridge. All of you are very caring and good people. My sisters were able to have their surgery because people cared enough to help them live. They have a long way to go, but thank you for helping them. I’ll be watching... and one day I will see all of you here at the Bridge; because I am everyone’s dog who had a part in saving my sisters. Thank You.
Thank You for Loving Us

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Faith Charity and hope (top) Faith  (middle) Charity (bottom) Hope.

The Story Continues

I have come to talk to you again and YES, to tell you the same story, but I have to add something and need to add it first. Some of you may be reading this for the first time. If you are, I know it is long and may be hard to read and understand that some people can be so mean. And some of you may be very tired of hearing it if you have read it before. The fact is, the problem is still out there, and as you are reading this there have been some things happen... things that are happening right now. Hope is fighting for her life again. She is not giving up as she is not as tired as I was. You helped her before and helped her to grow strong. But she has never really gotten past so many infections from the surgery she had to repair the damage from the sexual abuse. She would get infections almost everywhere, and would just take another antibiotic. But this time it just got worse and the blood came again. She started drooling a lot like I did and there was a lot of fear, so the vet has to see inside to know what is going on. She is seeing a specialist and it is going to be expensive again. But I am asking that you not let her die because of that.I know “Mom and Dad” will not. And I hope this will soon be over for them. The vet said once they stop growing, while there will always be a danger for them; the worst danger is now during the growth period. They are 9 months so they are halfway there at least. It cost a lot of money for the surgeries. I know. And we all hope this will not be as much, but Hope wants to live. She is fighting so hard.
UPDATE: Hope is home and doing well, preparing for the surgery that she still must undergo. She will need the surgery before Christmas. The stronger she is, the better for her. Hope has been through so much. We will walk each mile of this path with her. Share our story, pray, send warm thoughts

Charity

 

This is a photo of Hope and what was posted after the photo

Charity

I wanted to do a brief update and Faith and Hope. They are going to have their surgery. Faith will be first as the perforations are worse for her. Neither of the two are showing signs of being sick. Their appetites are good, but there is ... of course...blood in their feces. That is the first alarm that goes off, and we have learned through these girls that dogs can have blood in their feces for almost any reason. And the neighbors are now giving me strange looks after months of seeing me examine poop piles. Most people scoop the poop...I examine it thoroughly. My dog is even giving me strange looks (my Miniature Schnauzer). He looks back to see if I am examining his too.
It is strange the things we take for granted until something like this happens. I always knew I wanted to rescue dogs that had been hurt and needed a safe place to land. My husband is a fan of the senior dogs that get dumped simply because they are old. We never thought our lives would be so affected by three little pups. Until this happened, I could not imagine a human so twisted and perverted that he would do this to puppies. And for those who had questions, I do tend to forget that there are people coming in who have not read this before:We took three little APBT pups that had been dumped at the shelter and were not eating or moving around a lot. That sat huddled together. When we got them home, and we had the opportunity to see them walk, they walked with their butts almost tucked up under them and their tails laid to the side rather than straight down. We could clearly see that there was something wrong. They refused to eat and had given up period. We took them to see our vet who discovered the protrusion we had seen at their anus was part of their intestines. The injuries were consistent with anal penetration. However, no one would speak up and say for sure what had happened. We knew... but without more proof, we could not say who had done this. There were two people who knew what had happened. One was a neighbor and while we were trying to gather enough info to pursue charges for the pups, the neighbor did tell us what they knew. The man who breeds, sells and fights Pits has a son who has a fondness for bestiality. He knew the neighbor had seen what happened, threatened the neighbor and the threat largely worked. They will not come forward and only told us what they did because the man has moved. Still they are afraid of him as he has a history of violence and drugs.The other person who knows what happened cannot be named. She does keep tabs on him, and should the full truth of her involvement in reporting this man come out, she would lose her job. I will be happy to tell anyone why in a PM. I MUST honor her request here to remain anonymous. Once you hear why...you will understand. Plus... she is a resource for always knowing where this man is.The dogs were sodomized by the man’s son, had bite marks all over them where other dogs had harmed them, and they showed other signs of abuse. They cower when anyone pocks up a broom or a rake. They approach everyone the first time crawling forward, but wagging their entire bodies, begging to be petted and loved. At the first loud noise, they immediately roll to their back...which reveals scarring. The external scars are healing gradually and may one day all be hidden beneath their coats. We try and keep their coats combed ... and they enjoy the attention.Since they had grown and were not showing any signs of sickness at all, we became complacent and will always feel terrible about that. We had been warned and we were watching for signs, but somehow missed all the red flags that had shot up with Charity. The fact they looked good meant to us they were doing well. They were up to date on all vaccines and we were diligently working to try and socialize young animals that believed every human was going to hurt them. It took a long time to establish trust and we did become complacent. So Charity getting sick was something we were not prepared for. Before we had time to react, she was in a coma, and then she was gone. As a result, we opted to have Faith and Hope checked immediately. We learned there are tears, severe scarring and they will meet Charity’s fate without treatment and surgery. The surgery will hopefully repair most of the damage done so they will have a chance to live.If they survive the surgery, and their chances for that at this point are good, they WILL have a good chance to survive... though they will have to always be monitored closely. Since their chances are best if the surgery is done now, we made the decision to do what we have to do for the two girls who we know deserve a chance to live and be happy. The cost of the procedure was reduced because we are a rescue and the price quoted earlier was a reduced price over what the surgery would normally be. This surgery will be performed through the NC State School of Veterinary Medicine, and the cost would normally be double the $2500 per dog we have been asked to pay. So we are grateful for this. We have also been told by a number of people that most people would just opt to let the dogs go. We cannot do that while there is a chance for them to live and know they are loved and worthwhile. Since the money did have to be paid up front, we had an anonymous person pay the bill for us and allow us to pay them back as we get the funds. This wonderful gesture has made it possible for the two to go forward and have their surgery. I know all of you care. I have felt the strength of your best wishes, concern and love and I know that your thoughts and prayers have reached the dogs as well. I would like to ask that you extend those prayers to cover all of Eagle’s Den as we have been hit very hard lately. Some of you have been following all that has gone on and your best wishes, prayers and donations have been very much appreciated. Through these three American Pit Bull Terriers, and through Sugar, Twinkie and Lil Man, I have seen the best in human nature. If anything good has come from all of this, it is the fact that the lowest life form that causes harm and death to an entire species: “man’s best friend,” has caused the best of humans to step forward and to unite. You have proven that people can and do care about injustice and are willing to stand and fight for what they believe in. Recent events had led me to be very cynical of my own species, but you guys have renewed my faith, strength and resolve. Thank you for everything you have done.Right now, I want to get this part of the issue behind us. I need to focus and concentrate on the dogs, Faith and Hope ... and also on the others here at the Den. Jerry and I do want to pursue whatever justice we can bring for the dogs in our care, as well as for those who are still being abused by this scumbag. We ask that you allow us to get through the surgery before we go further with anything else. We will be acting on the best of our options as soon as this is over. Of course, I still have to convince Jerry that “the best option” does not involve a baseball bat, a pair of tweezers, and a carving knife. (he is convinced that anyone who would do this only requires tweezers to hold the anatomical structure to be cut off.)As soon as I have further details, I will share them. Please keep sharing the post, and please continue to pray (regardless of your faith) for these two pups.I chose this picture of Hope because it shows the way they all stood and walked for long time.To donate please utilize our Pay Pal account at:
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I do not have the words to express how these pups story has affected me,  I have seen cruelty first hand but never have I come across such depravity and complete EVIL ( there is no other words for it ) as this. I read Charity’s story with tears streaming down my face.

SO Massive Power Of The Paw for these little ladies please my friends

 

Momma Tea

Tuesday, 2 November 2010

EEK

I am off out tomorrow for about half an hour and am leaving the kidlets for the first time. To say I am nervous is putting it mildly but it has to be done sooner rather than later as I have a week of jollop again next week ( deep joy ). But I am nipping down to the local vets to pick up pdsa registration forms as it will be a lot more reasonable to get my girl spayed by them and she must be spayed bless her she will also need a dental at some time in the next few months also, it would be great if they could do it all in one go but it depends on what the docs say. She is such a sweetie though and follows me round the house just as Richie does I cannot even go to the bathroom without two furry faces peering round the door to check where I am, I have two little shadows and it is wonderful. Ronnii is still somewhat nervous but in time her confidence will improve I am positive of that. I got a little Christmas house out of storage a couple of days ago and she keeps just popping in it turning round and coming out again but tonight she toddled in and rearranged the bedding before coming out again which seems promising to me, she has also shown an interest in rawhide chews which makes me think she is starting to feel more at home and settled here now. To say I am a proud Yorkie Mom is putting it mildly and I am a very proud Richie Mom too. My boy is just being a complete babe with Ronnii although he is still Captain Shouty every now and then but I love them both so much and could not be happier with my kidlets.

Love

Momma Tea

Tuesday, 26 October 2010

Our little girl

is settling well, she is turning into a  right Poppa’s girl bless her. I think she is a little stressed by her move though as she has an upset tummy today. It could be the change in diet as well of course but I am keeping a close eye on her and hopefully it will settle down very quickly. I am going to give her a little chicken and rice tonight as that shouldn’t hurt at all, I do feel for her though it must be very confusing coming from her last foster Mummy and her family of doglets to a home with only one other somewhat shouty dog. It does make you wonder what they must think of it all really, it must be such a huge adjustment for them all. To be honest I have never really given the adapting side of it massive thought before now because Molly settled in so well and Richie did well to once his shouting calmed down. Both of them came from a foster Mum with other dogs but not as many as Ronnii had. She is a real sweetie and a total snuggle bunny too.

Little Princess has just eaten a little scrambled egg made with water bless her tippy toes.

Love

Momma Tea

Tuesday, 19 October 2010

I am finding myself

wondering lately about a lot of things but mostly about my Molly well not her exactly but me and her. This is going to be a bit a disjointed ramble I think. Most of you know Wilf don’t you well every morning his is the first blog I hit, I am desperate for news on him but terrified at the same time. His Dad writes so wonderfully about their days together and how much joy Wilf is having and it makes me think of my girl more. This is understandable but I feel they share the same positive spirit, that little thing that makes them determined to enjoy every second they can and to leave as many wonderful memories behind for those they love, so reading Wilfs blog is bittersweet for me. I still sign myself Mollys Momma Tea but how long is it ok for me to that ? I am now Richie’s Mom too and I feel slightly disloyal to him every time I sign but me being me I don’t want to stop being Momma, to Rich I am Ma and who knows what I will be to anyone else that may come along. Is there somewhere a rule set in stone that says I have to stop being Momma just because my girl is no longer here physically ? I dunno but I am thinking maybe just maybe to start just signing Momma Tea sometime in the near future. I know Molly would not mind in the slightest but somehow even just the thought makes me feel as if I am letting her go more and I so don’t want to let her go any more than I have if you know what I mean.

Sorry for my ramble but I needed to get this out of my system as it has been rattling round my noggin for a couple of days now and once aired I find things do become clearer…… eventually . No matter what I decide, in my heart I am always going to be her Momma because I will always love her dearly.

With Love

Mollys Momma Tea

Tuesday, 12 October 2010

When it’s all said and done

I spent most of this weekend in bed as I have felt so awful. But if this is what it takes to boot Lional the Loathsome Lurgyfied Lump out of my body and my life for good then so be it I will take everything they care to chuck at me. I have felt a wee bit down too but that is understandable I guess, it feels like I have been fighting all of this for so long now, nearly three years but I have overcome cancer in three places in that time but luckily only one of them decided to come back for a return stay in ‘ Hotel Tea ‘, I guess it must dig the surroundings………………lol .

To say I am looking forward to it all being over is an understatement but I do know that even when it is all gone the road to full recovery is a long one but it is one I look forward to travelling down. It means that I can actually start to make plans and look to the future properly.

I know that I can overcome almost anything life throws at me now and I can bounce back just like Bobby Darins rubber ball ( Oh heck that does make me feel blooming old now ). Even with all I have had to deal with over the last few years I still consider myself a lucky woman, if my ex hadn’t left me when he did I would not have found the anger to fight as hard as I have done and if Lional had not returned I may not have found my soul mate or had the privilege of being owned by Molly and now Richie. I now firmly believe everything happens for a reason even if you cannot see it at the time. Hindsight is a wonderful thing but I often wonder if I knew then what I know now would I have done things differently ? I like to think I wouldn’t because then I would not be who I am today, I am who I am today because of the choices I have made and the consequences of my choices whether good or bad. If I was to be brutally honest I have made some massive , huge, mahoosively bad choices in my life but in the last year I don’t think I have made one bad choice so maybe I am finally learning. Who knows all I do know is Richie is snoring like a warthog as he lays by the side of me in bed now and my eyes are starting to get heavy. So I will close now but will leave you with this thought .

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With Much Love

Mollys Momma Tea

               x

Tuesday, 21 September 2010

Convoluted Thoughts

I have had a really pants day today to be honest, Richie didn’t want his brekkie which and didn’t take his tablets in his usual bit of hot dog so the day didn’t start well, so we headed out for an early morning walk after which I managed to persuade him to have his meds thankfully. Then the phone rang it was my Mom telling me my son was ill and off of school, he had woken up at six feeling crappy and had some medicine and paracetamol and went back to bed, he didn’t want to open his birthday cards or anything. He slept until 11am and didn’t want a cup of tea or any porridge never a good sign in my son and a sure fire sign he is not feeling good. So Mom ‘suggested’ that it wasn’t wise for me to go and see him on his Birthday……………. Fair enough I am susceptible to picking up every little thing people have because of my immune system being a wee bit hinky these days but it was my baby boys 14th Birthday. Surely it is my choice but no I guess not.

Richie then decided to chuck up but he had been cheeky and nomming on grass so still wasn’t worrying too much though. But he has not been himself today maybe he was picking up on me being down. Animals are so perceptive I have had dogs in the past that knew when I was about to have a seizure and cats that have known when there was a spirit around , there are dogs that have picked up on owners having cancer so maybe my boy is emotion perceptive. Still I will be more myself once my review is out of the way I do tend to get a bit stressy before I have them which is understandable really. Trouble is whether I worry or not the outcome won’t be changed. But I was talking to my beloved earlier and said how odd I found it that this time I have kind of got my hopes up whereas usually I always expect and think the worst that way I am not disappointed. But my reasoning for my hopes being up this time is not logical, rational or sensible but here goes nothing. Molly came into my life when I really needed her and that she felt it was ok to let go because she knew I was going to be fine, now this reasoning works fine if I get the all clear but if I don’t then why the heck did my little girl let go? Silly, irrational, illogical and as daft as that may seem I can’t seem to get it out of my head at the moment. So you can see I am a major stressy Tea right now and I cannot wait for Friday to be over and I go get back to being my usual more positive me who thinks sensibly and rationally and one who is not wanting to just turn and high tail it out of the UK never to return.

On that confusing note I will close for tonight I think and head off to bed and try and get some sleep.

Wishing you all a peaceful night and a Happy Tuesday.

Mollys Momma Tea

 

Wednesday, 8 September 2010

Jack/Richard has certainly arrived

He appeared yesterday and has settled amazingly well our little Angel certainly chose well but then she would not have shared her home with just anyone now would she. Jack/Richard has some health issues but not as many as my girly did. He has a heart murmur and is on medication for that, he only has one eye bless him, he has Monorchidism which will needs to be checked out as well as his teeth and his nobbly little wart on his nose. So he is off to see our vet tomorrow morning to get the once over and decide when he can have his toothie pegs cleaned and his wart removed. He is a real cuddle bunny and if he wants a fuss he will stuff his head under my arm to let me know. He slept on my bed last night and had one little whine before snoring the night through so all in all a very good start. Took him for a walk last night and he poops in the funnies way he kinda stands on his two front paws as he poops unfortunately he promptly dropped his back paws right in his poop but it was funny all the same, he walks well on his lead and at a fair pace too which is good ( I may even lose some weight with walkies for both of us ).

As he was named Lil Richard by the pound that originally took him in he will have to keep that name for all his paperwork and on the forum but he doesn’t answer to it unfortunately not does he answer to Jack but oddly because we were talking about the odd noises he makes and when I said he sounded like Snuffy from Sesame Street his ears pricked up so at home he is Snuffy but he will probably still blog under his alter ego of The Dread Prate Jack…………….lol. There is nothing dread about this boy at all though but I won’t let him know I have said that.

We have had a quiet day today letting him settle in some more and we have had a good walk in the pouring rain which he didn’t seem to mind at all. So now he is snuggled next to me on the couch snoring his little head off.

With Love

Mollys Momma Tea

Tuesday, 7 September 2010

I am overwhelmed

by the kindness and generosity of people well not just any old people obviously but by like minded, crazy, scatty, wonderful, amazingly awesome dog loving people like all of you. Thanks to  you Molly has left a legacy of fund raising in her Memorial Fund, Her story is being told at LDR meet and greets and is encouraging others to foster and my heart although still broken is lifting because of all of this. Not only that but My little girl has a namesake thanks to Frankie Furter, as many of you know us doggy bloggy-ers have tried to help out Sweet Shelby and she had her pups last Friday and one of them a little girl was not suckling well and darling Frankie paid green papers ( to Shelbys fund ) to name her Molly after our Princess . Well Little Miss Molly is now doing well and we could not be happier for her and her beautiful Mamma. ( I know if I lived in The States I would be first in line when they needed a home for her ). I must add a thank you to those who sent us beautiful cards they are very much appreciated.

All of this wonderful kindness has really gone a long way to restore my faith in human beings…….. I have never doubted animals just people. I really want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart and soul for all the love, compassion and caring it really does mean the world to me. All of your kindness is truly overwhelming.

Now enough with the mushies as certain doglets would say and I have news…………………… We will soon have a new bloggy-er in our family as he wishes to continue where his sister left off and help raise awareness for dogs all over the world. He should find that easy in his line of work as you will no doubt find out.

As Molly told you she had chosen her brother Jack and yes he is still coming to live with us and sooner than we thought but I am very pleased he is as I am hating getting up and having no doggy toe nails tapping on the floor the silence in my house is deafening. So I must away now to go get things ready for his imminent arrival.

 

With much love

Mollys Momma

Ps. Who has a Momma called Jill ?

Tuesday, 17 August 2010

Having Trouble

Sleeping tonight worse luck, treatment can give you all sorts of hinky side effects but the sweats at night is one of the more suckier ones for me. I hate them big time all that prickly feeling skin just really ruins getting into a nice cool bed with cold pillows. On a plus note though after having Molly sleep with me last night for the entire night for the first time ever she is now coming up every night. Apart from being very comforting for me it will save us a fortune in pee pads as she does not feel the need to pee at night when sleeping on the bed. I also found that the sleep I did get last night was far deeper and a more satisfying sleep than I have been getting. I guess I had forgotten just how much I love having a dog on the bed at night. It was so lovely waking up this morning and finding my beautiful girl in exactly the same position as she was when I fell asleep, all snuggled into me curled up like a kidney bean.

I never quite expected to feel the way I do about Molly, I suppose I didn’t know what to expect with fostering a dog but even though she is not mine ‘officially’ there is absolutely no doubt in my mind that I am ‘HERS’ she is a real Mommy’s girl. I sometimes feel a little disloyal to my very first dog as I never thought I could ever love another dog as I did him he was my baby, but Molly well she has stolen my heart in a way I never thought possible and yes I love her every bit as Much as my beloved Sammy if not more. I thought that fostering a dog with such health issues as Momo has and knowing her time with us would be limited I would be wary about giving her my heart but it has been totally the opposite if anything I love more for it. She is such a feisty little lass with a determined spirit, nothing gets her down even when she was so seriously ill not so long ago, she was still laid back and didn’t make a fuss. She takes everything in her stride from having drips inserted to blood tests my baby just let the docs do what needed to be done to get her well and back home to us. She has given us so much and asks for so little in return and I am so proud to be her Momma. She gives me courage to battle on maybe not with as much dignity as she does, somehow a pink Mohawk and dignity don’t really go together but to carry on fighting and not to give up even when I really feel like it. When I feel like that I just look at her with all her new fuzziness and her sweet smile and I know I can fight on.

Thank you little one for coming into my life when I needed you most.

Love

Momo’s Momma

Tuesday, 10 August 2010

A break from my norm

Have you ever listened to a song and thought god that was written for me ? I’m sure we all have somehow there are certain songs that help us through specific times in our lives. Over the last few years I would have to say that there is one artist I have listened to a lot more than anyone else. She has helped me get over an awkward break up, she has helped me deal with my illness, she has seen me fall in love again and finally she is helping me work through the last of my treatments ( hopefully ). I think I am always going to have this one artist in my life somehow as so many of her songs are just so relevant and meaningful to me. If like now and I am a bit peevish I listen to her angrier tracks and oddly I stop being peeved and start to think logically and realise that being peeved is pointless and I just let whatever it is that has narked me go and move on. So whilst I came up to bed a rather miffed woman now I am calm and relaxed. I think as well being ill has changed me a lot whereas before I would have held onto being angry and grumpy and would have let things fester and bubble away inside until I hit boiling point now I know life is far too short to let silly inconsequential  things get to me. I find pleasure in the simplest of things now like seeing a rainbow ( as I did on Saturday ) and taking photos of crickets in my back yard.

There is so much beauty in everyday life but most if the time we never stop and just look, we never stop and smell flowers as we are too busy running around like blue bummed flies doing this, that and whatever as it has to be done right now and can’t wait. Well stuff it things can wait and will wait and if they don’t get done this instant then they will get done later. If I want to sit and just cuddle Molly then I am blooming well going to do it.

In the words of a wise little meerkat it’s     SIMPLES !

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Tuesday, 3 August 2010

30 Day Blog Journal – Day 18

Yikes the remit for today’s post is my wedding/or future wedding. Well I have already been married but seeing as that didn’t end too well I am not going to write about that one. As for my future wedding well I would love to be wearing jeans but lets face that is not gonna happen so let start at the top and work my way down. Stuff the traditional veil I am going for something along the lines of this

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This

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I would love a denim dress but the only denim bridal gowns I have seen just end up looking to heavy and clumpy looking. Bearing in mind I am not the skinniest of chicks ( or should that read old bird…..lol ) I would rather have something along the lines of this

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so I could maybe wear Palazzo pants under it and perhaps a fringed bolero jacket depending on the time of year,

Or perhaps something like this would work well.

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Do you detect a theme here ?…………… lol.

On my feet I am spoilt for choice but have narrowed it down to three styles

These,

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These,

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Or These

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Well that’s me kitted out and my darling fella is allowed to wear what ever he wants to and feels happy with.

To be really honest the clothing, venue, reception and all the fancy pants stuff are not that important to me, THE most important thing to me is that I am marrying the man I love and making a commitment to him to share the rest of my life with him and that is all that matters really.

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Tuesday, 20 July 2010

30 Day Blog – Day 11

Well today is the one I have not looked forward to……. the day I am supposed to post a photo of me taken recently. Not to keen on my photo being taken at the best of times but due to be ill for a while and my hair only just growing back I tend to avoid cameras these days. However I committed to doing this blog so do it I will. 

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Ok seriously now though I will post a decent-ish ( well as decent as pix of me get anyhoo ) The next two were taken in February before I started the last round of treatment and lost my hair yet again.

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These were taken at my first sci-fi convention and it was mega cool we got to meet some great people and Tom Baker one of the old Dr’s from Dr Who was there which excited my other half very much and James Marsters who played Spike in Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel was there which was awesome for me.

Moving on this is the most recent one of me since my hair has started growing back however my hair now has some pink in it again now at the front.

MOI So this is me.

Tatty Bye

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