Don’t know why but have not woken up feeling to bright today, feel very down and not too sure why so have done the best thing I know when feeling like this I have had a jolly good blub. So I now have that icky snotty-ness you get after a good blub, plus the red eyes so all in all I must look a sight to behold……….lol Thank heavens my furbabes don’t care one whit what I look like. Richie is eating again thankfully and his tummy seems to have settled down again thank goodness, I think it as he gets older his tummy is just getting a bit cranky so as long as we keep an eye on him and make sure we give him gentle tum foods for a day or two he will fine. I did get him a special water bowl as he is a terrible gulper and every so often he throws up after a big drink so he now has an anti gulp bowl which makes him drink a lot slower. It also has the added bonus for Ronnii that her chops dont get soaked every time she drinks and saves the floor from all the puddles dripping fur makes. I also got them some salmon oil to help their joints and coats as they are senior doglets I thought it a wise move. I love my babes so much and the thought of anything happening to them scares me silly, so I will do anything and everything to keep them safe and well. I think they already know how loved they are bless them, I will happily wait up at night until 2am for my boy to have his last wee, he has diuretics so his last wee is important for him to have a good restful, comfortable sleep. I can always doze during the day and catch up but his bladder does rule him poor little fellow I do sympathise as it cannot be easy being his age and constantly needing to pee, I think my OH would agree too……………….lol. It comes to us all I guess, I just hope when I reach the equivalent age to my Richie that I am half as fiesty as he is .
I received the letter from my sons school telling me officially about his prize giving it seems his prize will be awarded by a Member of Parliament ! Goodness me I am so proud of him and his achievements, they are all down to his hard work and the support and encouragement of my parents . My illness was very bad when my son started secondary school and I went with him on his first day and my parents collected him and he stayed with them that night, he is still there . My parents have given him stability, boundaries, encouragement and he would not have done as well as he has without them. If he had been here he would have seen things I would not have wanted him to see, days where I have just curled in a ball and howled because I hurt and felt so awful, he would have seen me hit rock bottom and try and claw my way back and no child should have to witness things like that. Especially my child, he may be rude and obnoxious but he also has such a sensitive side that to see his Mom like that would have done irreparable harm and I couldn’t have that. He doesn’t want to come home and whilst I try to understand I am not going to say this causes me no pain because it does, it hurts terribly but I also want what is best for him and for him to be happy and if this is what will do that then I accept it . As a parent all I want for my son is for him to be healthy , happy and loved and right now he is. He knows I love him with all my heart and I will do whatever I have to do to keep him feeling safe and secure . As a parent thats all we can do isn’t it