Maybe it’s time

I am having second thoughts about my next cycle of therapy, the chances are it isn’t going to make much difference to the actual lump so I am wondering if there is any actual point in me having it. It is going to make me feel like crap, my hair will go all hinky again , it will make me grumpy and I will have to leave fluffy butt & fuzzy butt alone every morning for two weeks and for what ?.  If it does not make any difference to the little lump why bother, the lump is so small now I am debating cancelling it and just trying to get my life back on track and start living again. After doing everything the powers that be have suggested over the last 3-ish years I am feeling like it it is time I started to make decisions about my own health.

I have been talking to various people on C forums and they kinda helped me make up my mind about this and I am almost positive I am going to cancel this cycle and get my life back now. I am going to tidy this house up and get it on the market and get a smaller place and if I have any money left over I am off to see my friend in Texas. All of this will not happen over night I know but it is time for me to look to the future now. So watch out world I am on my way back at last.

 

Momma Tea

It was

a bit of a day yesterday as Ronnii was sick a lot at first we thought her tummy was upset because she was fretting which would account for it but with hindsight we neglected to rinse her legs after our beach trip so now think she had washed herself which would deffo account for it. She is fine today and has eaten properly today for the first time since Monday, she is still missing her Big Bro though and I think it will be quite a while before that passes. She is like my little shadow at the moment bless her heart but she has Saturday to look forward to and meeting those Super Snuggly Schnauzers boys so I suspect she may go into floozy mode then her being the little minxette that she is. I have to confess I am rather excited about meeting them myself along with their wonderfully awesome Mom. I am off to town soon to buy nommables for the day and hopefully they will deliver them to save me carrying it all home on the bus.

I am off out on Sunday to a dog show and will be meeting up with some good friends there, I am travelling up with Richie’s Aunty Eileen and his fav roomie from when his Aunty Eileen fostered him so expect lots of photos next week of Rio the Crestie and all the other dogs we will be seeing. I expect Snowy will widdle on my leg again like the last time I saw him and I shall be getting snuggles with Sidney the pug pup amongst many others. Ronnii is staying with her Daddy as I think she will worn out from her hostessing duties on Saturday. It will be so good to see old friends and finally meet the laydees who am friends with but have not actually got to meet yet. I think this weekend will do me the world of good, I need to recharge my positivity vibes ready for my review on Thursday and this weekend will be a blooming good way to do it.

Please forgive me for not commenting on all your lovely posts for my sweet wee man but I am having trouble with blurry screens after reading them and am somewhat lost for the right words right now but I appreciate them all so very much. It is such a nice feeling to know he was loved so much by others as much as he was by us here, I am sad that you will all miss him but I know he & Molly will be visiting you all and playing pranks galore. I can just picture them sniggering away as some of you hunt for your missing treats or you favourite ball or when you wonder where that awful smell is coming from and your Moms blame you for it………………….. .

 

With Much Love

Momma Tea